9.08.2014

Static Friction

The moonless night is further shrouded in fog and smoke,
Each are sporadically illuminated by the light of the flames,
As the fire grow, higher and faster, hotter and stronger,
I stumble blind, helpless, and petrified, eyes stinging, throat burning,
Through the trees and brush, rocks and rivers, over well worn paths and bridges,
What was once peaceful is chaos, that which was safe now terrifies, the flames change all,
And yet I remain,
As the forest burns the flames reflect on the surface of my eyes,
And on my tears as they fall to the ground,
Preserving that on which the land but a moment longer before it too is consumed,
As it burns it becomes something terrible, something horrifyingly unfamiliar,
But it also brings new life, a fact which rises through my consciousness,
But is stopped by my fear like a chain around the neck of an angry dog,
A chain that is tied down to the anchor of the past,
To the sum of those moments when it was as it was,
And to the meaning it was thusly given and to the pleasure that meaning brought,
The anchor holds back hope, and life, and happiness, and everything that will be,
In favor of danger and dread, fear and uncertainty, hatred and anxiety,
But it holds me down, my feet firmly planted as the fire rages closer,
Searing my skin and burning my hair and clothes as it approaches, leaping from tree to tree,
My life, laid bare, crackles and burns, crumbles and collapses before me,
There is nothing to be done,
So with a sigh the chain breaks, and I step back before turning and walking away,
The fire will sink low and disappear and so will my memory of that place,
And in the weeks, months, and years that come, as it fades from my mind,
I will think less and less of it and someday when I have let myself forget,
I will remember again,
And I will journey again back to that strange but familiar landscape,
And it will be full of life and love, vitality and strength,
And I will live there and thrive there once more.

9.02.2014

Climbing Trees

A climbing tree and a little weed,
could give me all the afternoons I need,
emerging from the cold, dead ground,
on a Tuesday afternoon.

The cemetery is full of life,
beauty tainted with human strife,
so here I sit,
inspired to write,
as the sun sinks into the ocean.

The trees feed off the human remains,
their thirst is quenched by the occasional rain,
the afternoon sun is useless until spring,
until then it shines only on death.

But unlike those of us with flesh,
And eyes and toes and thoughts and breath,
trees don't stay dead,
the spring comes and they are alive instead,
and so when it's warm I'll come again,
on a Tuesday afternoon.

Disingenuous Meditation

Break up the cold with a smoke,
it warms you up from the inside out,
breathe in deep and the lens of your thoughts,
dissolves to expose the world as it is,
bare, cold, dead, and frozen,
quiet, still, ready to be explored,
captured in the frame of your mind.

But only until the effects of the smoke,
dissipate with the heat of your breath,
your thoughts come flooding back in,
the world becomes, once again, a distraction,
awaiting your return, awaiting the light,
that only the glowing tip of the cigarette will bring.

8.18.2014

Now the real work begins

Yesterday's elation has sunk and leveled off,
Maybe the novelty's just gone.
Yesterday they were clouds and I was flying,
Today it is fog, and I am wet and cold, exhausted and sad.
Stop, turn back, bring me home.

12.22.2012

Hit me from behind

The events of the past stretch out ahead,
laid bare but just for me,
from my perch in this landscape of time,
the present becomes history

My life is marked by the trail that I blazed,
winding through the events of my past,
the ups and downs, the bumps and bruises,
from the first right up to the last

But they all got me here
And I just have to steer,
but what I can't see,
is what's behind me,
as I wait for it to appear

4.20.2012

A New Word - Quizerdrix

Quizerdrix, n. - The moment between realization and the "fight or flight" reflex following the observation of something ridiculous in which one feels absolutely nothing at all.

In Context:

The octopus fell from the ceiling fan into the puddle of wet paint on the floor as Alan surveyed the scene. He experienced a fleeting moment of quizerdrix for what felt like an eternity before he resolved to crush his rising panic like winter ice over drained puddles on the sidewalk and plunge headlong into the pool. "Fuck the barracuda" he thought, "there's no stopping now..."

4.12.2010

The Orange by Wendy Cope

This is the first time I have posted something by someone else, just want to make it clear that I didn't write this one, enjoy!

The Orange

By Wendy Cope

At lunchtime I bought a huge orange
The size of it made us all laugh.
I peeled it and shared it with Robert and Dave—
They got quarters and I had a half.

And that orange it made me so happy,
As ordinary things often do
Just lately. The shopping. A walk in the park
This is peace and contentment. It's new.

The rest of the day was quite easy.
I did all my jobs on my list
And enjoyed them and had some time over.
I love you. I'm glad I exist.

3.31.2010

The Time Between

The trees and their branches await the sun,
They conceal their impatience well,
But one day in April their leaves appear,
Revealing their chlorophyll.

Amazed we are, astounded, impressed,
When green leaves suddenly abound,
And before too long, they're taken for granted,
Until they change color and fall to the ground.

The summer consists of the time between,
A time of ignorance and bliss,
When we fail to remember,
Until September,
It's the season we will most sorely miss.

3.28.2010

Words on a Page

I still have all your letters,
stashed upon my shelf,
I've kept them there,
all these years,
as a comfort to myself,
but on the occasion that they're opened,
and all read through complete,
I realize in my heart of hearts,
my happiness they deplete,
But even so, I keep them there,
to remind me of life's season,
when I was loved, and loved someone,
and for no other reason,
than love was what there was,
what we had,
what we knew was true,
until I found,
until you admitted,
that it was only me who loved you.

3.27.2010

Sunrise

The early morning sunrise, takes you by surprise,
but then it's mesmerizing, lovely,
and any stress you had from the day or week before,
goes right on out the window and right on in the door,
comes the next day, fresh and clean, bright and new,
ready to be explored.
It's like the reset button,
people just fail to see.
It's neglected, passed by, ignored,
but for the few that know it's there, and push it,
it has the capacity to be...
beautiful.